The first post in over 3 years...
I would like to make a point of thanking everyone who's been in my corner. The last few years have been rough and for the people I'm closest to, they know the toll that it has taken on me. I want all my friends to know that each of you has enriched my life in one way or another for the better. Each of you are special to me and have brought another aspect of my life to the surface. I only hope to one day be allowed the opportunity to help you, like you have helped me. I really do love you all...
A lot has changed in my life in recent years... I have gotten divorced, moved a few times, changed jobs, given up a beloved pet. Things that are hard to take one at a time, but all have occurred within months of one another. On the bright side, I have many positive changes... I am dating/ living with a wonderful man who has helped me to see the lighter side of life again. He has helped me in ways that I haven't been able to express to him- I hope that someday he will know what he has done for me... He's shown me that I *can* love once more.
For a long time I was living in a dark place- buried within myself. I didn't want anyone to know the pain I was in, so I shut everyone out. It was easier that way. I was miserable, but comfortable in the misery; it was what I had gotten used to. I slowly became aware of the hole I was mentally throwing myself in- so I decided that I would change. I became more positive, upbeat, outgoing and friendly. I used to be a social creature, but sometime after high school, I withdrew and became shy. I was determined to correct this and become who I "used to be." As I became self-aware, my attitude and outlook on life also changed. I was not as pessimistic, nor did I want to stay at home and do nothing for days on end. More needed to change, however...
If not for Justin and Sara, I would not have been able to walk this path I am on- a winding path towards happiness. There are many detours and sightseeing stops, but the end goal is always there. I hope to be able to share some of the "sights" along my path with you...
~~Jennifer
